The lesson (Haiku)

There was a time when
she would fill my ears
oh, how I miss that sweet sound.

I am drowning now
amongst all my fears
ambivalence drags me down.

Memories I have
they attack me still
nibbling on her earlobe.

How she said my name
How she devoured me
How she would say I love you.

I knew I loved her
but couldn't say it
I wanted to marry her.

Hesitation hurts
it has hurt us both
I'll regret it forever.

But I can't give up
I must continue
be it with her or without.

In the end we are
that which we become
for the first time in a while
I want to be
and that is the lesson learned.